7:16 AM

Confused wreck....

Posted by dreamydoll


Another post that is right from the roots of my thoughts and my li'll immature experiences...
My weekdays are turning into a new definition of loathing my work and changing my mind every moment. Well friends i know i sound quiet a bit confused but this whole maze of figuring out whether m liking my work or not is driving me hell crazy...It leaves me amazed, surprised and shocked all at the same time...i spent my 3 years thinking,loving and running around this sole subject named retail, read almost all the books stacked in the library and now this past one month has completely turned my love into hatred. My thoughts keep on drifting towards the other more interesting things existing in this world like enjoying my weekends off work with full utilization and loving my friends and their existence around me and the joy of coming home to someone who waits for you and loves you like a new day is to start. So many things have mushroomed up like everything i go for is not worth it, the joy of getting exhausted in the local train and sleeping on the shoulder of a completely strange person, the joy of hunting for more exciting things to do in the 1 hr of lunch, standing on the door and feeling yourself go free in the train, saying a hi to the engine driver, hunting for good looks on the station....and what not...I still wonder how do people spend their whole lives travelling,maybe they develop the knack of exploring something new everyday they travel,maybe this is the surprise. I am still learning the skill ;)

Why not even I like this city and the bond it ties between every resident of this land, you may never know the lady across but she maybe the one to keep a seat for you everyday, maybe you don't know the cook in the restaurant but he maybe the one to get happy everytime you enter his place to eat, maybe the wada pao wala is a stranger but he'll ask you for more because he knows you are hungry....this city really has a lot to give and share....I have enjoyed every bit of the li'll things i have experienced till now, the sorrows, the silence, the love, the joy, the roses and the lily's it has given me, the ocean that has inspired me to achieve my dreams to the rains that have inspired me to wash away all my old memories and start again from a new green land..... :)

I still maybe a fool, an immature and a bigger confused wreck than anybody else but i love to be so because this city loves me like that and is always ready to teach me more.....

5:16 AM

She is your dream and desire.....Love her

Posted by dreamydoll

"Where words end their shadows, where the sunlight leaves its trails......i wander in those skies of hope that one day all my hearts desires will come true".

 I have heard people analysing the anonymity of life and its journey, seen many of them taking a step further and making people realize what worth their lives stand for. But confessing to the roots of my heart, i have always thought in a bit different way about life.....People turn 20 and then 30 and then 40 and so on, some remember the faint memoirs of their early lives,their childhood, their adoloscence and some dont. So why do they want to spend some of the precious moments of their lives realizing what they have been, what they could have been, and now what can they do. For me time and joy are both faces of the same coin, time teaches you to face pain and joy teaches you to wait for the pain to leave. Someday my message bottle will reach accross the shore and all my desires written in it will come true. "Hope" is such a big whirlpool that it does not even let us think that we are half dead draining into its hands. But still it saves time and helps you to sail accross sorrows. I have a small poem to share with you all..maybe i can touch some deep desire in your heart that needs to drain in this big whirlpool of hope atleast once....


Search the vanity and you will see her
Wrapped in tussar, intact with her perfume
Unfold the shadows slowly
And you'll hear her sing, her long lost melancholies
Stay in her closet and she will show you
The moonlight of her so called destiny
That always stayed tumbling through gushing emotions
and when you know its time to leave her forever,
Just tell he I have long lost my soul.....
I left it near her when I last unwrapped her shadows
Tell her I have lost my dreams
I left them in her tiny hands the last time when I heard her sing...

Maybe if you see you deep desire waking up...just let her know that you are there to love her....

11:23 AM

Stop dreaming......ITs hazardous to heart

Posted by dreamydoll

Sweet candies, ice-top hills,gushing rivers,sizzling castles and knights on a dark horse and magic wands that would turn all the evil into glittering diamonds. these are some of the beautiful dreams every girl treasures in the deepest of her fantasies, but girls chocolates can be sweet, expensive jewelery can be glittery but in case of life it can never be sugary and dreamy. in this real world magic wands are not made to turn evil into good but dreams to ashes. the rivers here carry the sorrows of the separated romeos and juliets.
life is too sharp for girls who find it difficult to relate their dreamy blues to practicalities. All flows with time and tide where moments are wiped with just a swash from the memories of the loved ones, requests are turned down with a bash of disappointments. I recently read an article in the newspaper regarding an issue thats true to almost all our lives, we girls and even women of any age have been reading passionate romantic novels since a long time and with time have developed a certain notion about those swept away lives and the charming prince. well in real life the charming prince does come and sweeps you off your feet but then you soon realise that to spend your life further with your prince you have to return back to this ground. Many women accept this fact that dreamy castle scenes can only be found in those highly romantic mills and boons and many like me take the dream ahead and try to stay in their own world.
so girls if you listen to what i say then i feel that every girl should understand the fact that real life is full of those every second bitter stunts that count on your sentiments. So create a small secret world of your own. The secret world should have a secret door and a secret key, girls i can bet no one except your own heart on this earth can get to that door because its only yours, treasure all your dreams in it, nurture them, cherish those dreams, build up diamond castles in it and visit it at least once a day, and m sure that this will help bring the balance between the world and me. remember your are me, the pretty me.

7:52 PM

Bloom,,,,The spring has come

Posted by dreamydoll


New days, new flights, new ways to go

Running through sands there are new seeds to sow.
Blinking to the shine of destination
He stands there stunned in admiration.
Look!!! there is a garden grown to nurture your paths,
Don't turn them to hot hearths.
Slow be the shine of your fate
Let the destined diamond be ultimate.
Shhh!!! no ripples have gone silent.
No havocs have died
The storm has just begun,
Bring to life the roots that have long ago dried.
So do it man!!! You can make it all....
Rock it hard!!!You have to stand after every fall!!

11:20 AM

Virtually living....

Posted by dreamydoll




At night when I look up to the moon in my balcony singing a melancholy song with the stars always beside him, I wonder how many miles he must have travelled to reach this window of mine. I wonder what pains he must have taken to stay stuck in the dark universe just to make me happy. Look am so happy with my fantasies. Distracted by the tick tick of the clock kept on my table a thought suddenly took a flight in my mind. It’s been so many years and I haven’t seen anything. The world is such a wonderful place to cherish every ounce of my happiness and I haven’t nurtured my sight yet. The time is flying away so fast, no dew is waiting for me, no tide slowing down, So many tasks to be done, so many smiles to be seen, so many minds to be read and so many worlds to be discovered. I thought of the long day that just went by me in just a few moments, and it seems as if this world is so virtual that fades away just like that in front of our eyes. And so real to be experienced.

8:19 AM

hey,,wish me happy days.........

Posted by dreamydoll


Sweet candy frosts melting on my fingers,
The taste of chocolate delights still lingers,
The streams so juvenile, entrapping my feet,
The butterflies mimicking my beats,
Wait oh wait,,thou santa,
I still have a long list to ask,
A golden shoe and a purple mask,
Frilly frocks and dancing ponies,
Wait oh wait, thou santa,
I still have some smiles unseen,
Help me show them out,
So that angels can count my teeth
So that my tears they can no more seeth.
Hey santa , promise me before you go,
You will take my dreams with you
To those enchanted magic worlds you go
and send me back my frothy flakes
those creamy, yummy, cherishable moment cakes.

7:22 AM

A feeling unnamed

Posted by dreamydoll


So pure and insane is the feeling ,,
Of being nurtured with love,
Diving and getting absorbed into the world of it,
Turning all lanes into its beautiful garden,
Running through the sands of this heaven,
I close my eyes and feel its aura
No less than dark and no more than light,
So pleasant yet so frightful,,
So soft yet so cruel,
Sims down at a touch,
Flares up with a sensation so unknown
Sometimes it feels so familiar to be loved,
And sometimes seems so alone, so insufficient,
Still dreams never cease to imagine love,
And I will never stop dreaming..